I have developed sinusitis – dull ache in cheeks and teeth and lots of ….ok TMI but it has to do with snot. I am normally very anti antibiotics (unless there is a serious confirmed bacterial infection – I think they are over-used in colds) but after lots of nagging from the beautiful Paraguayan, I have gotten a script for some antibiotics. It may also stop the cough (probably from all the muck from the sinuses), and I may get a better sleep.
I have been a bit anxious re: my career lately – I am finishing up my training this year, “getting my letters” aka the FRACP and will be a consultant geriatrician as of February next year. I plan to do a PhD, which I am applying for, and going for scholarships and such. The PhD will be on obesity in the elderly, and the trial is pretty much all my idea; my ‘baby’. It is very exciting but it is a bit off the beaten track, a bit of uncertainty involved, a bit less “safe”. I also have to apply for a consultant position for a couple of sessions a week, for which I have had a few “maybes” and “very likelies” but nothing yet on paper. This is ok because none of the other folk finishing have job set in concrete. But I had a bit of a “doubt attack” yesterday – wondering whether I was doing the right thing. I have largely gotten over it now – I have a lot of years working as a consultant physician, what is 3 or 4 years to do some original research which contributes to medical knowledge and pick up a bunch of new skills plus or minus pop out a baby or two.
Today, I met up with my supervisor for my end of year report. It was always going to be a satisfactory one (we need satisfactory reports to “pass” our training), but I was fearing fall-out from the nasty incident from the 2 bitchy bosses; it all made me a bit anxious. Basically she was happy with my job, she was happy to be a referee and said that she enjoyed working with me. We did talk a bit about the incident, I didn’t say much other than “it’ll all come out in the wash”. So that bit is signed off.
Regarding my eating/weight loss malarkey – I have been a bit quiet about that, sort of working away (i.e. doing Weight Watchers) in the background. I have come to a few good conclusions lately. The first is that a bit of denial won’t hurt me – I have found this out in practice multiple times recently. The second is that I need to get a consistent decent calorie deficit – in practical terms, this means, for most days of the week, no wine, no chips, no choccy, no cakies, plus a little bit of exercise every day while I am in weight loss mode. I just need to make it consistent. CONSISTENCY – the c word. The psychologist said that I had lost a bit off my face/upper body – I dunno, I have not really been weighing myself.
I am totally looking forward to holidays! Yay! Only 12 working days to go!