So I have taken a few days of the PhD stuff, a day or two off work.
The times when I have been up and about, I have been preoccupied, and forgetful.
I have got bugger all done with the PhD.
Twice this week, I forgot I had patients.
Twice this week, I have forgotten where I parked my car and spent nearly an hour looking for it. While looking for it, I just wanted to lay down on the ground and go into the foetal position. Sometimes I stop, look around, scratch my head.
So. Much. NOISE. Can’t focus. So I forget. And all I want to do is lie in bed with the doona over my head, and I have done just that.
I have been fighting all year to feel good about myself despite some major things happening. I thought that I was getting the hang of it.
Why, why did I lose that feeling? Nothing really has changed.
Here I am, about to find out.