I have a confession to make.
I have been comfort eating a bit more recently.
Cake here, biscuits there, chips, grog……It is all coming in, insidiously.
It does not help that my housemate keeps contraband in the house, but now she is on a bit of a health kick….
Last night, I was tired after a busy week. I could have gone out, but didn’t have the energy. However, I didn’t want to go home to an empty house. All my friends were otherwise occupied. So, what would I fall slave to? My loneliness, or my tiredness. It was the latter.
Why was I anxious about being at home alone? Nothing to take the edge off. I have plenty of stuff to do, most of it house-cleany stuff. Was too tired. I knew what I needed – a cuddle, some company, on the couch- but none of that was forthcoming.
So what did I do? Went and bought a bottle of wine.
Drank half of it on the couch, while watching “it’s a knockout”. Tipped the other half out. Got into my housemate’s tube of Pringles. Ate 2/3 of that. Tipped the rest out into the bin.
I have not done that in a while, but I see old patterns returning. I feel, sometimes, I need something – comfort – and turn to food and grog for it. Though the irony is that they are ultimately not particularly comforting.
I spend a lot of time outside of my comfort zone, so of course I need comforting, lots of it, probably.
Finding new things I can do alone, that don’t take much effort – that’s what I need to do. I have gotten better at it, but it is a work in progress.
These are a few of my favourite things:
-smearing rich moisturiser on my arms and legs – cocoa body butter is great.
-reading good books (anyone have any they like?)
-listening to Gotye. He is my first music dream boat since John Farnham, circa 1989.
-Washing my hair and styling it with serum and a hair straightener.
-surfing the ‘net (though that is probably a bit of FOMO – fear of missing out)
Here are some more things I can do:
-watch DVDs: the old chestnut sex and the city, the big bang theory, anyone suggest others?
-Phone a friend
-Get out the hair curlers
-Paint toenails (though distance running is a great way to ruin pedicures)
-Go to the pool, just to float about, or sit in the spa.
-Run a bath.