I am.

I am:

• realising that, this year, I have gone to hell and back, with a few little road trips to purgatory and, better, to heaven.
• being brave
• maintaining personal hygiene
• well groomed, dressed and made-up
• exercising
• brushing and flossing my teeth
• going easy on myself
• not drowning my sorrows in alcohol (perhaps just wading them)
• eating enough to keep me healthy
• being a competent doctor, even though it is very draining at times
• trying to concentrate on my upcoming PhD projects
• trying to carefully engineer bridges between my self and some people
• trying not to burn other bridges
• trying to put in as much effort with some people as they have with me
• saying yes when I feel like it, and saying no when I don’t feel like it
• following my instincts
• facing my demons, if not slaying them, then briefly incapacitating them with a big chinese burn and wedgie.
• facing the dark depths of my sadness, and mindfully enjoying happy times.
• slowly and intermittently feeling stronger.

Sheesh. No freaking wonder I feel tired and drained at the end of the days.

If you are lucky enough to have my phone number, drop me a line.